Hello. This is you, from the future (that's crazy, right?) - newly graduated and just turned 20.
You're 15 now, with the attitude "I'm not going to be older than 20. Then my live will be over." It won't, it's just beginning at 20. First things first, I know you think that sadness and anger is normal and you really haven't spoken about your parents divorce (or the reason, which you know but you don't tell) - I know you think it's not troubling you but it is. It's called depression and blaming yourself and hiding it will make it worse. So my advice to you is to go see a psychologist, like you should've done when you were 9 or younger, because it started that early, you just won't notice it because you've lived with it all your life. Don't worry, you'll be happy and healthy in just a few months of therapy. Very happy. Promise.
Also, take self defence classes. Prepare for a bumpy ride called life that gets even harder when you're happy, it has many ups and downs but you're very lucky. Be grateful for everything in your life, you've got friends and your family is way better than you realize. Your mom is always there for you even though you don't see it, you'll see it later.
You're going to pick the hardest college of them all. You'll finish it in 4 years, good job. You'll also go alone to Spain to study Spanish and leaving Iceland with almost no vocabulary and no knowledge of the language. It's going to be so much fun.
The biggest regret is not going somewhere as an exchange student. So that's what you should do. Go to south or central America. Also, draw more. You should practise a lot, taking a break from it for a few years thinking it's just a hobby isn't your idea in a few years. It's also a good therapy, for everything. I know you're full in the blog thingie at 15 and you're a pretty popular blogger. Don't let the negative feedback get you down, keep writing and stop deleting it all the time. Your brain works in magical ways at that time, all that anger and bitterness makes you write beautiful words and it gets harder as you start thinking more healthily. You will want to read it again later for inspiration.
Don't be afraid showing off your style. Be more open and positive - people are generally good and nice and you're not one against the universe. You'll fall in love and break up with him, he really loves you no matter what you think. You really have to let people close to you, still having that problem 5 years later.
Me, the twenty-year-old girl is very happy now, even though we've had our ups and downs. About to travel the world with friends, finished school for a while and loving life.
But I guess I can't change what's happened, even though I would like to change a few things I don't regret anything. Life's too short for regret. You are what you think, you are what you do. And since we're talking now, dear me, stop thinking you're fat. You're 49 kilos, which is way too little for you. Eating one meal a day isn't doing anything for you. Eating is good, you can eat healthy if you don't want to gain weight and the fear of going over 50 kiloes is dumb.
But hey, have to leave. I might write you more letters, not to put on the internet, but something in my diary. Maybe to the even younger you.
Good-bye, bitter, angry teenager.
I love you, you should too.
You're 15 now, with the attitude "I'm not going to be older than 20. Then my live will be over." It won't, it's just beginning at 20. First things first, I know you think that sadness and anger is normal and you really haven't spoken about your parents divorce (or the reason, which you know but you don't tell) - I know you think it's not troubling you but it is. It's called depression and blaming yourself and hiding it will make it worse. So my advice to you is to go see a psychologist, like you should've done when you were 9 or younger, because it started that early, you just won't notice it because you've lived with it all your life. Don't worry, you'll be happy and healthy in just a few months of therapy. Very happy. Promise.
Also, take self defence classes. Prepare for a bumpy ride called life that gets even harder when you're happy, it has many ups and downs but you're very lucky. Be grateful for everything in your life, you've got friends and your family is way better than you realize. Your mom is always there for you even though you don't see it, you'll see it later.
You're going to pick the hardest college of them all. You'll finish it in 4 years, good job. You'll also go alone to Spain to study Spanish and leaving Iceland with almost no vocabulary and no knowledge of the language. It's going to be so much fun.
The biggest regret is not going somewhere as an exchange student. So that's what you should do. Go to south or central America. Also, draw more. You should practise a lot, taking a break from it for a few years thinking it's just a hobby isn't your idea in a few years. It's also a good therapy, for everything. I know you're full in the blog thingie at 15 and you're a pretty popular blogger. Don't let the negative feedback get you down, keep writing and stop deleting it all the time. Your brain works in magical ways at that time, all that anger and bitterness makes you write beautiful words and it gets harder as you start thinking more healthily. You will want to read it again later for inspiration.
Don't be afraid showing off your style. Be more open and positive - people are generally good and nice and you're not one against the universe. You'll fall in love and break up with him, he really loves you no matter what you think. You really have to let people close to you, still having that problem 5 years later.
Me, the twenty-year-old girl is very happy now, even though we've had our ups and downs. About to travel the world with friends, finished school for a while and loving life.
But I guess I can't change what's happened, even though I would like to change a few things I don't regret anything. Life's too short for regret. You are what you think, you are what you do. And since we're talking now, dear me, stop thinking you're fat. You're 49 kilos, which is way too little for you. Eating one meal a day isn't doing anything for you. Eating is good, you can eat healthy if you don't want to gain weight and the fear of going over 50 kiloes is dumb.
But hey, have to leave. I might write you more letters, not to put on the internet, but something in my diary. Maybe to the even younger you.
Good-bye, bitter, angry teenager.
I love you, you should too.
Sincerely, you.
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