My first days were really hard, but after the 4th day everything got better. I've been here for 8 days now and things are getting easier, but we started off on the wrong foot.
Today was easy, but my host-dad's mom is here so I didn't even have to take the kids to school/pick them up and they were with here. I just took the older one to a birthday party down town but nothing more (and a bit cleaning, but that didn't take long). Because his mom is here we speak more spanish than usually, because they're from Chile. It's so weird, when I came here I could speak a bit spanish and no german, now I can speak a bit german but I don't know where my spanish is hiding. Annoying? Yes.
I'm even thinking a bit about leaving this christmas, going home and then head to Spain to study spanish for a couple of months. School is more me than this au pair thing, but this is okay, it's not bad and it's really nice to get away from everything.
Speaking of ex-boyfriends... I think it's always going to be on a grey-area to befriend them, even though they were að huge part of your life. Now I'm speaking to my ex, we have each other blocked on facebook so we can't look at each other's profiles but two weeks ago we met up (we broke up 2 years ago, we were each others "first love") just to clarify things before I went to Germany because we kind of left things in the air and the last time we met we had this HUGE fight, that was last September I think. I checked his facebook profile (I can't, but I can do it on another account) and saw a pic of him and his girlfriend together and I wanted to cry. I don't really like him that way, but I care for him a lot and it's so hard seeing him sharing what we shared with someone else.
But I think you can't compare two loves, like if I ever find someone else that I "love" I won't compare it to the other one. I hope he doesn't see this new girlfriend as someone better (she probably is, I was depressed and kind of weird/crazy the whole relationship so at that time I didn't make a very good gf) but someone new, it's not the same love, it's a whole different love.
I'm sorry that my writing now is such a mess, it's kind of without a context and back-and-forth speaking! :(
PS. NaNoWriMo coming up! What are you guys going to write about (those who'll take part)? I have no idea what to write, but I want to take part anyways.
Today was easy, but my host-dad's mom is here so I didn't even have to take the kids to school/pick them up and they were with here. I just took the older one to a birthday party down town but nothing more (and a bit cleaning, but that didn't take long). Because his mom is here we speak more spanish than usually, because they're from Chile. It's so weird, when I came here I could speak a bit spanish and no german, now I can speak a bit german but I don't know where my spanish is hiding. Annoying? Yes.
I'm even thinking a bit about leaving this christmas, going home and then head to Spain to study spanish for a couple of months. School is more me than this au pair thing, but this is okay, it's not bad and it's really nice to get away from everything.
Speaking of ex-boyfriends... I think it's always going to be on a grey-area to befriend them, even though they were að huge part of your life. Now I'm speaking to my ex, we have each other blocked on facebook so we can't look at each other's profiles but two weeks ago we met up (we broke up 2 years ago, we were each others "first love") just to clarify things before I went to Germany because we kind of left things in the air and the last time we met we had this HUGE fight, that was last September I think. I checked his facebook profile (I can't, but I can do it on another account) and saw a pic of him and his girlfriend together and I wanted to cry. I don't really like him that way, but I care for him a lot and it's so hard seeing him sharing what we shared with someone else.
But I think you can't compare two loves, like if I ever find someone else that I "love" I won't compare it to the other one. I hope he doesn't see this new girlfriend as someone better (she probably is, I was depressed and kind of weird/crazy the whole relationship so at that time I didn't make a very good gf) but someone new, it's not the same love, it's a whole different love.
I'm sorry that my writing now is such a mess, it's kind of without a context and back-and-forth speaking! :(
PS. NaNoWriMo coming up! What are you guys going to write about (those who'll take part)? I have no idea what to write, but I want to take part anyways.
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